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Sick and tired.

2010-07-21T19:45:00.000+08:00

I will never understand it.

It still hurts to think about it.

Take these walls away from me, and let me leave this place,

so i can finally be sane.

You were all my anything and everything could be,

But just the very thought of you makes me feel unclean.

I hate how easy it is for you to completely sicken me.

You're always there in the back of my mind,

your words still cut their way into my head.

Why won't this loathing feeling just leave me alone?

I'm sick of seeing your face in all my dreams.

Filth, Pain and Disguest fill in my head.

If i could only just erase you from my memory.

Girlfriends.

2010-07-13T20:47:00.001+08:00

Say hellooooooooooooooooooooooooo to me.

School was absolutely fine today. I get to see him ALOT of times, omg. It's like almost every lesson!:) Hmmm. Nothing much happen today. But this post is specially for my girlf-s. I realized, they are the closers to me in school, in class and @ anyway else. We've been knowning each other since secondary1 and now look, 5 of us as like sista's now.

Shirlaine - Twiny! Haha, Whatever i have, you have it too. Isn't that cool? Can we have the same blood too? haha. Twiny, since secondary1 till now, youre still my aiai/twiny. Although we fight over small stuff/ big stuff, I still love you like i always do(: Remember during secondary one, we have a HUGE fight. And than weihong came in to help you? I can't really remember what we were fighting about. But end up, IM the one to say sorry-.- LOLLOL! Sigh. Next year will be our last year. Study well tau. Okay twinny? Hopefully we get into the same ITE. Not just we, but the rest of our girlf-s too:D Kk? Love'ya!

Miss Lil Shanel - Hey sayangku!! Omg. Youre like a cute little sexy adik to me. Finally, i told ya the truth. Im sorry whatever i did to you since secondary one till now. All the bad stuffs and etc. I was really childish ehs. I'm really sorry. Well, now look! We are like FUCKING close:D It's like, FINALLY! huhu:) Hmmmm, So far .. We did hang out together right? Having pizza for our lunch with the rest of the girls, slacking. Well, hopefully i get my full-freedom soon. So we can hang out somewhere 'FAR'. LOL! But, youre gonna be @ malaysia soon right? HOPE my parents allow me to visit you there ehs. Gonna miss you tau:( Study properly ok syg? Must get in the same ITE:D Love'ya!

Crystal - BABY! We are like 'shirlaine&me' type ehs. WE LOVE OUR DAD! yeah we do! haha. Well baby. I can;t really remember anything. We didn't have a fight before right? No? yes? No we didn't:D haha, Hmmmmm, handsome guys everywhere huh:) Everytime when i see shuaige, reminds me of you, HAHA! Wellwell, Same goes to you too ok. Study hard, same ITE. kk? :D love'ya ^^

Radiatu - LES! Haha, this is funny:) Hmm, we wasn't classmates durin our sec1 &2 days. But we do lepak together with Syikka & gangs right. Rememeber? haha. But now, finally we're classmate, yeahhh!:D Nothing went wrong with us this year. Everything was perfect:) But you seldom lepak with us already, WTF! :'( Sigh.You just study hard okay. Study hard, same ITE. Ite, MUST lepak already ehs. I don't CARE! :D Teeeheeeee.s Love'ya les! :D:D

Sigh. Whenever i'm not with them, i feel so boring ehs. No joke, no laughter. All of them know who i have a crush on, LOL. Sigh, Imissthem already. I guess i should stop here. Gonna meet them tmr. Nights readers^^

Down with fever, FML !

2010-07-09T21:33:00.003+08:00

Current song: Broken hearted girl by Beyonce.

I'm back.

I'm not in a good mood nowadays. My mood has gone up, side, down. And now guess what, I'm down with fever. Isn't that great. Didn't attend school today. Promised my girlf(s) that we will be havin lunch @ Pizza, BukitPanjang. So i head down to school and meet them. Wanted to see that secondary 2 guy. He's like so freaking cute, plus hot lahs. But he was too slow so we went straight to Bpp. Lunch was wonderful. Last minute my aunt called me. Asked me to head home right after my lunch to pack my stuff and than uncle will drive me to Malaysia, Palm Resort. But in the evening aunt texted me, again, and she has changed her mind. Asked me to choose whether i wanna go Palm Resort tonight or tomorrow. Eventually i choose tomorrow. I'm gonna miss chatting with my friends ehs. Well, i wonder if my aunt knows i'm down with fever, do i still have to go Malaysia? Sigh. I wanna stay home. Well anyway .. I regretted not attendin school today. It's friday. There's CPA. I'm not done with my research yet. How am i suppose to do my coursework next week, F ! Let's see what's gonna happen on monday.

Well speaking of monday, time has been change. Just for Monday, 12July. All students will have to been in school by 9am . Due to WorldCup Final. Omg! I'm going after Spain. Actually Spain isn't that bad afterall, Sigh. Hoho, Let's see than.

I don't know what's up with me now. I just want to be loved by someone. I need someone to take care of me and love me with all 'his' heart. Why isit not happening to me. Did i do something fzxking wrong? And me. There two guy in my mind now. WHAT THE F !? Which one? I gotta go for just ONE. Him or him? I don't wanna cry for a guy. Ain't baby no more. Somebody please. Help me. Should i forget about 'love' or continue searching. Oh my GOSH! Am i being too Thick-Skin here? FML lah!

To him: I do still have some feeling for you. Regret lettin you go. But how? I don't want the same old thing. I want real love. I don't want just ' slackin and go home ' . That's freakin borin. HOW?

And to him: We haven talked to each other before & you're way too young for me. I understand. Well, there's one thing i need you to do. Go far, far away from me. Don't let me see' ya again. Will you?

I'm sorry reader. I'm sick and i don't know what i want. Bye.

Twilight saga Breaking Dawn

2010-07-05T22:27:00.001+08:00

Twilight

Twilight saga Newmoon
Twilight saga Eclipse
Twilight saga Breaking Dawn

Breaking Dawn is split into two separate parts. The first part deteils Bella's marriage and honeymoon with Edward, which they spend on a private island off the coast of Brazil. Two weeks into their honeymoon, Bella realizes that she is pregnant with Edward Cullen's semi-vampire child and that her condition is progressing at an unnatually accelerated rate. After contacting Carlisle, who confirms her pregnancy, she and Edward immediately retuen home to Forks, washington. Edward, concerned for Bella's life and convinced that the fetus is a monster as it continues to develop with unnatural rapidity, urges her to have an abortion. However, Bella feels a connection with the child and refuses.

The novel's second part is written from the perspective of werewolf Jacob Black, and lasts throughout Bella's pregnancy and childbirth. Jacob's Quileute wolf pack, not knowning what danger the unborn child may pose, plan to destory it, also killing Bella. Jacob vehemently protests this decision and leaves, forming his own pack with Leah and Seth Clearwater. Bella soon gives birth, but the baby breaks many of her bones and she loses massive amounts of blood. In order to save her life, Edward changes her into a vampire by injecting his venom into her heart. Jacob, who was present for the birth, almost immediately "imprints" -- an involuntary response in which a shape-shifter finds his soul mate -- on Edward and Bella's newborn daughter, Renesmee.

The third section of Breaking Dawn shifts back to Bella's perspective, finding her changed into a vampire and enjoying her new life and abilities. However, the vampire Irina misidentifies Renesmee as an "immortal children", a child who has been turned into a vampire. Because "immortal children" are uncontrollable, creating them has been outlawed by the Volturi. After Irina presents her allegation to the Volturi, they plan to destory Renesmee and the Cullens. In an attempt to survive, the Cullen gather other vampire clans from around the world to stand as witnesses and prove to the Volturi that Renesmee is not an immortal child. Upon confronting the gathered Cullen allies and witnesses, the Volturi discover that they have been misinformed and immediately execute Irina for her mistake. However, they remain undecided on whether Renesmee should be viewed as a threat to vampires' secret existence. At that time, Alice and Jasper, who had left prior to the confrontation, return with a Mapuche called Nahuel, a 150-year-old vampire-human crossbreed like Renesmee. he demonstrates that the crossbreeds pose no threat, and the Volturi surrender. Edward, Bella and Renesmee return to their home in peace.

- Auntie and i will be waiting. I'll be buying the book first while waiting for the movie to be out which is 7 months away from now :D

You're following the wrong person.

2010-06-30T20:55:00.005+08:00

No picture for today. Just a simple short post which is what's on my mind right now. Here's a short story about a guy, had a crush with a girl:

A guy had a crush on this girl. He follows her wherever she goes. One day the girl noticed & asked the guy:

Girl: Why do you keep on following me?

Boy: B'cause you're so pretty and i think i'm falling in love with you.

Girl: Really? But you haven't met my friend yet. She's prettier than me and she's right behind you. ( The guy looked behind him but found no one.)

Boy: Are you making fun of me? There's no one behind me.

Girl: No. But if you really love me, you won't look back.

I guess i need you back. But i should or should i not? I'm confused!

2010-06-28T17:56:00.010+08:00

Once again, it's monday. Monday monday monday, sigh. School reopen. Went to school with darl today. It's been months i didn't meet up with her. First day of school, and it's suck alot manzx. Got caught, coloured hair. Wtf sey. Com'on lah school. My hair isn't that fzxking brown right. What the shit lahs, it's freaking lame okay! And now what? Asking me to colour black? KISS MY FZXKING ASS EHS! Wait long long ehs. Wanna spoil my hair ehs, c'b. GRRRR! First day of school and make me fzxked up, bloodyhell. Well, after recess onwards i was like damn sleepy and i don't know why. Till now, I'm still sleepy but I've to control otherwise i couldn't sleep @ night. And than the problem starts. Sigh! Got new timetable and it's better than our previous one:D Blahblahblah. After school, went to accompany nini for lunch and than head to petir lrt and meet up with izza. We were laughin like mad women for like about 1 hour, LOL. pretty fun being with them. Hahahs! After a hour later, all of us head back to homesweethome.

Gosh. After having 1 month of holiday, i don't feel like going back to school @ all sia. I hate having this feeling, seriously manzx. Anyw, I'm feelin down this few days and i don't know why is that so. Is like so sudden lah, haiyo. Not sure whether i'm going to school tomorrow anot. Very lazy, super duper lazy. But it's 80% going uhs. If not need to give fzxkin letter-.- Well tomorrow whether i'm going to school anot, doesn't matter uhs. Going to Singapore Conference Hall to catch Esperanza 4 @ 0730 anyw:) Going to support Fajar band members manzxzx, Whooohooooo! Goin with radiahh, izza & the rest. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day for me uhks.

I've relinked you guys alrdy, so don't worry yeahhs? Arite, I'm going to catch my show now. See ya readers soon(:

It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not b'cause you constantly remind them, but b'cause they pay attention to you.

Vietnam trip, comments.

2010-06-17T19:36:00.000+08:00

Welcome back everyone, & me :D

( There's a group photo of N(T) serivce learning to vietnam. But I've no idea why i can't upload it. Sorry. )

It's been very very, very long i didn't do any blogging manzxzx. Kinda miss blogging already, LOL! Well last week 7-11June, I was away from Singapore for CIP @ Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam with schoolmates. I did enjoy myself over there, with friends around me morning to night:) But the food over there, sucks alot. Didn't eat much there but still, there's coke for me for energy and wakes me up whenever I'm sleepy, teehees! & Ofcourse, bought gifts for family as well:D I forget what's the name for the first resort that we stayed for 1 day. But whatever it is, i hate that resort. Freaking lots of mosquito. And for second resort, Well actually is not reosort, it's a hotel & i remember the name. It was a Blue Diamond Hotel. Freaking lots of misquito as well, especially the toilet. Gosh! Besides doing CIP there, some feelings went up to me too. I'm starting to fall in love with him once again. He's changed, alot. Wondering if there's any chances anot, sigh. If you readers know who's the 'he' , Please keep it to yourself alright. Thanks.

Continue ..

Yesterday 16June, My friends and i have made a plan to hang around @ Jurong point. But my aunt last min asked me and my cousin out to catch 'Karate kid' & shop for Father's day gift.
- Nothing much happen yesterday.

& Lastly, HAPPY 1YEAR11MONTH DARLING :D
Next month will be our 2years of darlings, whoooooo^^
Very fast, teeheeeees (Y)

Lovesick?

2010-05-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

I'm confuse! All the guy I've fallen in love with, I was wrong about them. And now, it's you. I really can't believe it. I'm afraid of falling in love again. How? :'( I really don't know what else i can do now. Maybe i AM a failure. Should i give up ?

Start of something new(:.

2010-05-13T23:59:00.005+08:00

Hey wassupp peeeepos !

Yes, it's been very long. As you can see, I had just deleted all my past posts. This shows that I'm gonna start with something new. I'm getting restless already eh, don't know why. But i promise I'll try my best to start blogging again. Last month, everything also fine. But when comes to this month, it sucks ALOT. Stress with studies & etc. Well but now exams are over. Time to rest, yeah? :D Last 2 weeks brother found a cat & he bring it home. It's a female so my uncle name it, Nada. Well, last week there was war between my 2 cats and Nada. Guess what, Brother brought Nada home without knowing that she's pregnant. Two days ago( 11 May ), Nada give birth to 5 kittens. But one of them died. And yesterday another one died as well, thanks to Nada. Nada kept on lying down ON the kitten, stupid!;x And today, Nada give birth to another kitten but that kitten died into nada's stomach. What a wasted, stupid cat. Means total, nada give birth to 6 kittens ! And now, left 2 kittens :( Sigh ! Well, @ least 2 kitten make it ^^

Hoho, Exams are over. Like yeahhhs:) Now left PTC, omg. Haha. Ptc is on 27 May 2o10, so as the vietnam trip briefing. Well, i'll be away from 7 - 11 June. Vietnam trip, whoooo! Cannot wait lahs sey! XD , Lol! Hmm, i guess i'm gonna stop her for today. Before i end, here's a news of Justin Bieber(:

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Justin Bieber's strict mother
Justin Bieber has revealed his mother sets him strict rules and he still has a curfew.

Justin Bieber has to ask his mother for money.

The 16-year-old 'Baby' singer admits that, despite being a worldwide sensation, his mother Patti Mallette still makes him abide by her strict rules.

He said: 'I don't really have an allowance. When I want to get something I just have to ask my mom.'

'I usually have to be home by 10 o'clock and my mom takes my computer away at 10.30pm every night.'

The teen sensation admitted to talk show host Oprah Winfrey he had recently experienced one of his mother's punishments after misbehaving.

He told her: 'I got my phone taken away for four days. Because I'm travelling so much my mom takes thing I really, really like - like my computer or my phone.'

Oprah then asked him: 'You don't say 'Mom I can't get grounded, I'm Justin Bieber?' '

The singer laughed and admitted he wouldn't stand up to his parent.

He explained: 'She would slap me in the face if I said that.'

Although he has a tight schedule, Justin tries to take one day a week off to be a 'regular kid' and socialise with his friends or play sport.

He added: 'Sometimes that day I just sleep all day, because from the six days before that I'm exhausted.'

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I just need you to stop your 'sweettalk' with me.
I can't stand it anymore.
You make me fall for you,
and now you're making me crying for you.
I hate you for that.
I was wrong about you again.
IHATEYOU!